So I started the Marie Kondo tidying up challenge and began with phase 1: clothing. I actually do a purge every 6 months but I’ve been holding onto some things that I needed to let go of. And I have to admit, I always feel better with less clutter.
Then it happened. Time to go through the jeans. Toward the end, I found a pair I wasn’t sure I was ready to let go...so I tried them on. When I couldn’t even get them up my hips, it was like all the self love I built up over the past year came crashing down around me. The thoughts started flowing, “These fit me last year. I love these jeans, they used to look so good! Did I really gain that much weight? Are my legs really that big? These are a size 8 and they should fit! How did I let this happen? I work out 5 days a week, etc. how is this possible?” Ugh. As it turns out, my clothes weren’t the only thing that needed to be sorted out, my mind was a real mess.
It took me a few hours to actually get over it. "Take a deep breath, Tina. They’re just jeans. They’re not even in style anymore. You have jeans that fit. You look great, you feel great, you’re strong, you’re confident, and a number stitched on a tag does not define your worth!”
I wanted to share this with you guys so you know that I realize it’s easier said than done. Body acceptance and body love can be hard with the way we grew up and the fake-ness of the world today. I literally help people through this stuff for a living, and it can still creep up and try to pull me under too.
Stay strong ladies, we don’t have to be any size or any weight to be beautiful. I intend to accept my body today, love my body tomorrow, and appreciate my body always.
Peace out, skeletons.